"Life as I knew it came to a jarring standstill. Thinking back, it was like being completely immersed in reading a book, but then suddenly, midsentence, the rest of the story disappeared. Blank pages. Everything gone, vanished. Only the past was left, no more future. The blank pages turned black and I fell into a dark nothingness. Nothingness and paralyzing grief." {author unknown}   In these years since becoming a widow, I have read thousands upon thousands upon thousands of words about grief. NONE have described it with such detail and depth.